I come from… a handful of fist fights, in between confrontational nights. I come from… violence, physical pain, anger, revenge and resentment. I come from… feeling misunderstood most of my life. I come from… a defensive nature you would NOT believe. I come from… killing babies inside of me. I come from… late night walks in my neighborhood by myself, testing my survival skills. I come from… filling the emptiness within myself with drugs, men, money, food and anything else. I come from… insecurities about me. Simply being me. Without focusing on the complexities of me. The multilayer’s of me.
I ALSO come from… picketing coffee beans in Hawaii. I come from…traveling to distant lands through far off seas. I come from… working a construction job with a group of framers rebuilding Marin City. I come from…not eating grapes and strawberries during my childhood, cause of the constant picketing. I come from… the Jewish Community Center where I took tap, dance, jazz, capiorera, gymnastics and swimming classes just to name a few I come from… two parents who were always in the public eye striving for the rights of human kind. I come from… being a baby.
And now I am a woman a culmination of all these things and more. I share these things with you because now I see. I am not just one thing. You are not just one thing. I am a culmination of a whole lot of things being. People influencing me. Helping me, get closer to the essential me. We are reflections of each other. If we were smart, we would learn from one another. In every exchange with others, seeing an opportunity for blessings. Growth, development and a chance to let go of all negativity, making room for positivity. Let’s let the positivity overwhelm us. Just like we let people’s response to us overwhelm us. Positivity can overwhelm us just like the anger, violence, pain, arrogance and ignorance overwhelmed us in the past. This is our pathway to get free. Free from ALL negativity. So that when triggers appear and shatan gets near…
When the crossroads are here…we only have a second. No time for fear. When one second can change MANY future years. When we come to these crossroads we are equip and ready. To make clear, the real life of, no fear. Just sober decisions. Good decisions, not only for ourselves, but for all those who are near. Good choices are easy. Greatness is here. Inside each and everyone of us. And what are we doing if we are not tapping into that greatness. Every second, every minute, every hour of every day. Getting closer to our essential way. Put our hang ups on the shelf. Take a breathe, think and move. Do it movin’. Closer to who we really are, not limited to our current condition, not being our experiences. But ALL are. Who we were and who we want to be. And let’s LIVE in that, B! Be that! “All you can be” like they say in the army. Because I am a reflection of you. And you are a reflection of me. And together we can ALL get free.
