By Niko Herrera
You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why
You’re so insecure; you need to put that to the side
That is not the way baby, that you’re gonna fly
You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why
You wanted Mom’s attention; she was with some other guy
When I had a bad dream, she was not in sight
Looking for my mama, but she kept into the night
You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why
Daddy wasn’t there; he was somewhere getting high
Banging with the homies. He was always down to ride
But I wish he would have come home, took me for a drive
You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why
Your hood wasn’t good where you grew up; it was trifling,
and by the age of nine, seen a couple people die
Thinking it was normal to carry around a knife
You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why
Used to get bullied, he was always undersized
You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why
Never good enough, contemplating suicide
You always felt alone and nobody really tried.
Fighting at school just to feel all right
All you wanted was some love—can’t somebody hold me tight?
You’re so hard to love, I know the reason why
I’ve done some bad things, I ain’t trying to glorify
The system got me down and I’m tired of doing time
When you put them cuffs on,why they got to be so tight?
I been in a dark world with only red and blue lights
You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why
Got yourself played by a pretty, evil, dime
She took my heart and broke it; Something inside me died
Now I’m hardheaded and everybody’s lying
Always paranoid, but it’s all up in my mind
Not looking at myself, or these demons that I hide.
You’re so hard to love, and I know the reason why
Abuse is always wrong, on every single side
I thought you was my friend;
I was barely over five
Hurting those around you,
but we know who’s hurt inside
Why do we do these things?
Why do we victimize?
You can hold tears for years,
but sometimes
you gotta cry
Forgiveness is the best thing—
now that is not a lie
You’re so hard to love,
I think I know
the reason why
I was only hurt;
I didn’t mean to do
those crimes
